Life happens in a second. One minute it’s not, but then it is. Before he wasn’t, but then he was. You weren’t, but then you are. Life, that supernatural catalyst that creates each of us, happens in a second.
After Jack and I had been married for a couple of years, I got the yearning to have babies. I wanted bright, red-headed boys and lovely, sweet-smelling girls. We got busy and not quite a year later I was pregnant with Thomas. I have a fairly good idea of when conception took place by doing the math. What amazes me is that there was no immediate indication. I mean what once was just a sperm and an egg became LIFE. How can that happen without pomp and fanfare? Or at least a little vertigo in the incubator. How could something so incredible happen without notice?
I believe that in that second we became a larger part of God’s plan. That attempt at conception was by no means our first. Attempting conception was a job we took to, as most do. It is knowing this that has always made me quite sure that God gave this specific child –Thomas, and later Emma and then Liz- into our care. That He meant for that specific sperm to fertilize that specific egg and create that specific life. That He intended Jack and me to be the parents of these children and that He intended them to complete our family.
I know that not everyone feels this way. Sadly, I had to explain abortion to my 11 year old daughter last week. I know that there are millions of unwanted pregnancies each year and that those pregnancies are unwanted for a myriad of reasons, some understandable in my worldview, some not. I also know that each life –from the second it’s created- is loved by God, no matter how it came to be.
And I believe that He has a purpose for that life, even if we can never understand what that purpose may be. A very close friend of mine has lost two babies in the past year. It’s hard to understand why those answered prayers were given life, only for it to be taken away, but I know that there is a reason and that we will understand it someday.
I have always been amazed at the complexity of God’s mechanisms. I’m no scientist, but I’ve suffered through taken enough science classes to be flabbergasted by God’s ingenuity. I have a hard time understanding how people can witness the grandeur of our galaxy, the creativity of plant and animal life and the intricacy of the human body and not believe in God. But most amazing of all is that spark that turns mere tissue into life. And it all happens in just one second!